“Snow and Sky and Pine” is a song inspired by the tragic story of how music legend Hank Williams died in the backseat of his car on his way between gigs. Being so loved yet being so alone. The dream isn’t always what it seams to be. Too many creative souls has fallen victim to burnout and addiction when becoming a commodity of an industry. Hank Williams wrote the country hit “I saw the light” but at the end of his life, as he sank into depression, he said to his Minnie “There ain’t no light for me”.
Freedom Fighter is an homage to people who dare blow the whistle and tell it like it is. Of course, fighting the powers that be will never go unpunished. They will undermine you, look down on you, your competence, your story or whatever they find that sticks. For me personally this experience came from me questioning ideas and leadership in the church-culture that I ended up leaving. They couldn’t give good answers to my questions so they questioned me for asking them instead. I actually thought I’d be able to make some kind of change, but sorry to say I had to count my losses and just get out.
This song is ment to deal with the filter bubble that all media is contributing to. Today you never hear “…but on the other hand” in any american news segments. I do think that Swedish media is a little bit better though. A little. The consequence of all media having an agenda is suspicion towards everything that contradicts what you already think. Be careful.
Ever felt trapped? Ever felt like you’re at a place where you wish to leave – not knowing how? This is a song that in a pretty philosophical way deals with those emotions. For me personally it was about leaving the ways and traditions I was brought up in the church. Suddenly I realized I need to make my own decisions not based on other people’s expectations. That was hard. Real hard. And there was no rainbow at the other end – just a feeling of relief when still watching that rainbow from afar.
I wrote this song when it became clear that the so called “Sweden Democrats” (Sverigedemokraterna) was about to do their best election of in history in Sweden. They are a right wing party with its roots in racists movements. Also Trump won the presidency and it became clear how populism owns the agenda. It’s obvious how these voices say one thing but actually mean something else. Racism is disguised as “strive for safety” etc. I believe that turning our back on our fellow man will never make us more safe.
Inspired by Peter Rollins words about the contrasts of life, the two things that are in constant battle with each other – symbolised in Grace and Gravity. Fighting darkness with darkness, fire with fire or violence with more violence is bound to fail. The contrast is needed for achieving a change. And contradictions are a natural part of life. Balance come from experiencing both high and low. Keep an open and welcoming spirit.
This song is about a friend I met at a homeless shelter. He’d just come to Sweden, hoping to make life better for him and his two kids. He had such a warm heart. But the circumstances and details that made his and my life totally different was deppressing. Just because he wasn’t born here he was destined to a life without hope. He just wished to go home, to his loved ones.
Mental illness, feeling sorrow or loneliness are emotions that many people know all too well. Trying to push through such a dark season on your own can be exhausting. It’s by opening up and leveling with one another that we can keep above water. If you don’t have a context to turn to remember that there are digital forums where people are waiting to listen to you. In Swedish: Om du behöver stöd i samtal kring depression och ångest ta kontakt med din vårdcentral. Ett digitalt alternativ är Under Kevlaret på insta och FB samt Svenska kyrkans chattjour.
Viewing the journey we all do in life I wrote this song about an actual journey. And how your initial destination may change as you encounter new things and experience new stuff. What seamed so right in the beginning may be something else in the end. And that’s ok – cus where can you go but forward? You can’t go back in time but you can come back to love. The important thing is to dare to accept when you’re wrong and set out a new path.